Wow, welcome to September! Hope everyone is enjoying the holiday weekend.
Today is the start of 30 days of gratitude. I recently re-read The Gratitude Diaries which followed the author as she discovered gratitude for a year. I thought it might be a good thing to do as well but for a shorter period of time.
And, here we go. 🙂
Day 1 — I am here. Where I am. Today and now. And Who I am.
It may sound a little weird but to understand you have to look at me in the beginning.
I have a reputation in the small town where I grew up. I am known as the little girl found on the railroad tracks. There were two big industries in the area: steel and railroads. The railroad tracks were far enough from my childhood home that you couldn’t see them but close enough that the sway of the house from the trains passing would lull you to sleep. I still dream about how it feels.
Apparently, at the wee age of 2, I had escaped home and no one could find me. They eventually located me, happy as a clam (or maybe a little sprite :-)) playing on those active railroad tracks. I had no idea of the danger around me. (Cue current day oblivious me.) I expect I was screaming when they carried me away. (I haven’t ever heard any confirmations or denials.)
Why? Because they were taking Abbi away from her happiness. I grew up around plenty of strife and conflict. I didn’t like it. My response was to run away. The benefits of running away allowed me to create my own happiness, possibly my own little bubble of happiness. As early as elementary school, I was trying to learn to be who I wanted to be and keep the happiness flowing.
I still don’t like conflict but I don’t run away like I used to. I’ve learned to ask: “Is this worth fighting for?” Weighing pros versus cons. It takes a lot of conscious effort on my part to face conflict while maintaining a center of happiness.
I firmly believe that with each major shift/conflict in my life, things could’ve gone in many different directions. I’ve managed to stay strong on a positive path throughout it all.
Day 2 is up tomorrow. Have a happy rest of your day.
If you want to be happy, be.Leo Tolstoy